work over friends.

I've started the trend with my blogs to be just about life in general... so I decided to write today about my babysitting job and how it affects my life. Today, I had to babysit for the same three kids that I always babysit twice a week but soon to be four days. It's really not my favorite thing to do, but the job has grown on me. However, I do babysit on Fridays so it is a bit of a pain whenever I am done at 645, and my friends have something planned for earlier and it ruins my plans in general. But I need the money so I prefer to put work first even whenever things come up. For instance, today I was invited to a Pens game while I was babysitting. Of course I wanted to go so bad, but I would have had to have someone fill in for me so I could leave early. This messes with my whole schedule and the Mom that I babysit for would not really think I was responsible for leaving for my friends so I decided against it. No, I was not pleased, but sometimes everyone has to make compromises in order to do the right thing. I'd rather excel in my job than slack, and that is how I want to be in the future as well so might as well get used to it now. Everything turns out right in the end whenever you make the right choice. Yes, I was upset I had to miss the Pens game but I did feel good about not leaving my job and making my friend fill in. I am sure that most people around my age especially can relate to this. I know many of my friends that have to sacrifice plans for their job and they hate it as well. It's a part of life, and we all have to learn to get used to it now or else we never will.

a change in relationships.

Yesterday after school, I was doing my homework whenever I heard my little sister dart through the door downstairs from after school. I am usually not home when she arrives home from school, so I when I heard her come upstairs to her room, I went in to say hi and ask how her day was. Instead of a normal response of "it was good" I got a "get away!" This shocked me at first. My relationship with my little sister, Tatum, has always been close and tight, and I make sure that I am always there for her when she needs me to be. I wasn't sure what I did to deserve this answer, but it didn't feel good. The day before was her birthday and I gave her a special card and made sure I said it to her as soon as I saw her. However, I couldn't make it to her birthday dinner so I knew this gave her some kind of resentment towards me. I for some reason really hated when she was mad at me the most out of my siblings, probably because I want her to come to me and not remember me when she is older as pushing her away. I asked her what was wrong and she gave me rude remarks, so I left her alone. Instead of bothering her I felt it was better to leave her alone. She is getting older, considering that she just turned eight and is already in the third grade since she is the youngest. I remember going through that stage in my life and caring about friends more than anyone else so I understand where she is coming from. But I hate the change. I think the best way to deal with it is waiting for her to come around to me for another couple of days, and if not then I talk to her. But in general I feel like a lot of people have the same issue and it's not a good feeling whenever you don't want to be pushed away.

aupairs.

Everyone's house consists of a different number of people, and everyone has different situations. Whether it is divorced, single mom, single dad, step-mom, or step-dad... or maybe you are a lucky one with a normal functioning family. But no matter what, there are always going to people with a situation that is not always considered "normal," and everyone has to adjust to change... just some more drastic than others. My family is quite different than it used to be. I have my two younger siblings and my older sister, and we are all taken care of by the hands of my dad, and my dad only. This was never the case until I lost my mom to breast cancer three years ago. It's something I am not comfortable opening up to with anyone, but, however, everyone is aware of the factors that go along with this situation such as my aupairs. My dad is in a family business and works five days a week from morning until night, and with my sister and I engaged in school this was going to be a problem. My dad had looked into aupairs online which is someone from a different country around the age of eighteen to mid twenties that stays with you and your family for a year to have someone there to take care of things. The first one came my freshman year, and her name was Pinja from Finland. It was a little weird at first and very hard to accept. She was only eighteen and it blows my mind that she came to a different country with a different family at such a young age, I know I could never. I still keep in touch with her till this day, she became like another big sister. My next one came the year after, and her name was Maria from Denmark. She was very energetic and only twenty when she came. I keep in touch with her as well still over skype and facebook, and her too I was extremely close with and my little brother and sister made a good bond with her. My newest one had just left this week after her one year and her name is Emma from Sweden. I did not have that close of a bond with her, but my little brother really connected with her and was very upset about her leaving. My dad just found our new one, she came this week from Sweden and her name is Paula. She seems very nice and my little sister has already quickly adjusted. It is hard for them to be close with someone and then have them leave them, but it is one of my dads only options and it is more of an experience for all of us. There are many ups and downs to having an aupair, but all in all it is a huge experience and I have met people that I will have a relationship with for the rest of my life.

everything happens for a reason.

Even though sometimes I doubt the fact that everything happens for a reason, I have been proven more times than less that this statement is true. It is very hard for me to believe sometimes, but why question why something happened when you will never have the answers. There is no point in sitting and wondering why, or if something bad happens of course you are going to get upset, but one thing that keeps me going is knowing that there had to be some type of reason behind it. Then again, there are good instances where this happens. Do you ever wonder when you walk out the door to go to your car, but then realize you forgot your car keys so you go back inside to get them, if something different would have turned out that day such as a car crash without that extra minute that you took up? I know I do all the time. I am a huge over thinker, and that to me is a something that I could over analyze numerous times. For example, today is September 9, meaning that September 11 is coming up in two days. This is obviously a tragedy remembered, and for many peoples a loss of lives. Now we will never know why that had to happen, or have any answer behind the cruelty of the act. However, I do know a story that blows my mind. My friend knows a family friend who happened to work in the twin towers and was having a normal day of work. His coworkers and him went on a donuts/coffee run and left the building to go across the street for it. The next moment, the plane crashed right into his building on his floor... More than half of his coworkers were dead. It gives me a chill just thinking about, knowing that if he wouldn't have left at that specific time then that could have been him. And it really makes me wonder why things happen the way they do. Of course, there are bad reasons to it, such as why did the people that died have to, and what was their reason. But instead we will never know so we just have to learn how to accept and not kill ourselves over finding the answer because till this day I will still always believe that everything happens for a reason.

about me.

I've come to the conclusion that my first blog needs to be about myself. In the future, I will have many blogs about whatever comes to mind, but to understand my points of view and to have interest in my writings, I think it's important to know some things about me. There's a lot to know about me to say the least, so I might as well start off with the basics. I'm seventeen years old, but will be turning eighteen on December 17. I attend Franklin Regional High School and am just beginning senior year. School is not my favorite, but I don't absolutely hate it... I do personally think that I come from a good school. I'm the kind of person who loves my friends, but I also save enough time for my family. I have an older sister, and a younger brother and sister who I am very close with all of them. My dad is who takes care of us and he does a good job providing everything, even though his time consists of mostly work. When I'm not with friends, family, or at school I will be at yoga. It is something I got interested in two years ago and still continue to love everything about it. I used to be into cheerleading and gymnastics, but I had to quit due to knee problems so I picked up yoga as an alternative. I go as much as I can with my free time, and it makes me feel so much better every time. When finding the word to describe me, uptight is not the right word. I am very laid back and enjoy the little things in life. I do let small things bother me sometimes, though. i hate change such as something so little to the color of my room if I’ve always had the same color since I was little... I hate getting used to new things. however, I am a very adventurous person and like to try new experiences. I can't stand being bored and always have to keep myself busy whether it's swimming, watching a movie, or babysitting in which is my job. It's easy, and I consider myself an independent person and am able to take care of myself as well as others. growing up and taking care of my own family is something that I have always looked forward to. These are all just a few of the many things about me and the things in my life. like I mentioned before, there is a lot more to know about me, and I will have more to say in all of my upcoming blogs.